Hi guys, I just came home from Si Tian's birthday celebration @ Pizza Hut/ Open Plaza.

And I just heard about the news. Melissa Toh from TP Design School took her life on Wednesday morning. ):

Ahhhhhh life is short, life is tragic. And yes, life is a struggle. But struggle, indeed, is a part of life.

I don't know her, I never met her but I feel her. I guess she was just too tired... Sometimes the thought of sucidal isn't absurd and out of the world. (Okay actually maybe it is.) But sometimes you just feel it's the only way out. It's silly, yet. Looking at all her works, I feel so inspired. And I'm very, very sure she's an inspiration to everyone. Everyone, anyone.

She's a talent. A talent, indeed.

This tragic news has never left my mind.

And I don't think any suicidal news has left me thinking so much, really so much, about... everything. I suddenly realise this is the real world I'm living in and the real world I'm living in is cruel.

I feel sad for all those who care/ love her so much. Her friends, her family especially. I feel sad for Melissa. It's sucha a pity. The world has lost a beautiful pretty lady. She's like so pretty and frankly speaking, she doesn't look like she has anything to worry about. She looks happy, satisfied and very carefree.

Hmm, damn it, it's sooooooooooooooooo sad isn't it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Death - is something real and no one will ever escape it.

I'm afraid of death. And all of sudden, I feel life is short. And that's not a good thing. But I know most importantly, we've all gotta live life to the fullest. Also, make a difference in someone's life. When you've made an impact, you know you've succeeded in life.

She's up in Heaven right now and I know she'll lead a much better life up there.

How I wish baby's home so I can him the news.

Anyway, I know this is going to sound crazy.

BUT, I want to get married before I die. I want to adopt 5 dogs from SPCA. I want to save as many animals' lives as possible. (Because I can't save your life obviously, unless you're prepared to die. You're not an animal. I'll be a vet someday, perhaps.) I want somebody to tell me I'm beautiful inside and out w/ a lie detector to make sure she/he not cheating my feelings. I want to be famous ahhhhhhhhh k kidding. I want to tell Daddy, mummy, Belle, Nel, Joel Lim, David Alex Lee, Darlene Hong, Esther Tan, Alex Grace, Callista Lim, Valerie Yeo, Beverley and allllllllllllllllllllll the siao scarfo people I met todayz "I love you all and knowing you guys is the best thing that has ever, ever happened to me!!!" Lastly, I want to go for plastic surgery. Hehe.

Okay, I'm going to watch tv and chill. Wait till I upload the picturez.

:) I'm using Cobie naoz. He's like effing effing hot ttm. Cobie is pink.

I miss my boyfriend.......................... he's in Malaysia.

Alrighty guys, I want a hug. ): A hug from anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll blog again.

P S Why do pretty girls look so pretty even in unglamz? I want I want I jealous.

P S I bought paopaocha for myself and my sister......... But I forgot I had no money after topping up my ezlink card -_-. Luckily I had 5 cents extra :). It was just, enough! So heng hor.
Life still goes on for the rest of us. When's my turn, I wonder? And if I parted, will I leave such an impact like Melissa?

And I posted this because my buttocks look sexy, don't they???????? :>



















Okayz, I'm back from school. :>

Pretty day @ schoooooo todayz. In luv *hearts* Idk, school's just fun. I mean, with the friends you're with! But ooopsy cause' I didn't wash my hair in the morning today. I felt disgusted because my hair just didn't feel right. Hair > everything else on your body (excluding face OF COURSE!!!)

Will you want to make friends with a girl whos got oily hair?

Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww nevaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. (:

Thats not the point anyway. The point is I smell like strawberriez nao. I smell so nice I'll turn you on. Woohoo~ K I'm kidding la wl. I just bathed, yes after 3 whole hours at home *giggles* I was too tired to even bathe. I fell asleep on the couch once my head touched the cushionz!

Sometimes, home's awesm.

So do you like the pictures?

I realise I'm blogging nuggetz of entries these few days due to the lost of inspiration to blog. Sad muchiezzzzzzzzzzz. ): Oh well, I didn't even post the sentosa picz w/ scarfo on my blog (it's up on fb though) *Smilez*

MY PICTURES ON TOP SO SCANDALOUS HOR????? VALERIE YEO LIYING IS MY NEWFOUND DARLING! I dunno why also. She comes online just to tell me she misses me. Hehehehehehe. I have an irresistable charm.

Aiya oh oh oh you know something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Fuji lappy is here. Yay [x10000000000000000] It's pink yay me yay me yay me yay me. It's an ugly pink but whatever it's still pink. Luvzzzzzzzzzzz. If only I got a hot pink lappy I'll be like staring at it everyday. Anywayz, it's still chio nonetheless! Not quite the chioest shade of pink but all pink = chio and hot and did I say mad chioooooooooo?????????????? Ahhhhh.

I'm naming my laptop, Matthew? Matty? Oooooofiedoofiewooooooooo????? :D.

Idc it's a boy.

There's a korean girl in my class she's like damn hot and pretty. If I'm a boy, I'll jio her. Hehe.

There's like a whole bunch of chiobus in TP and I'm like, so jealous can't you tell???????????

):

Oh and I joined cheerleading!!! Like damn awesm because people toss you around and I like it mad muchiez. I know I suck at dancing and my flexibility may be the worst of them all but......... Idk cheerleaderz are like *thumbs up* awesome stuff. Hehe. And maybe at the end of 3 years, I can be a professional extortionist.

Coach is like, from Japan.
(: Her accent is so sexy.

Anyway guyz, cheerleading is tough. It really is.

Well well, let's see if I can survive. :>

Jingjing's like next to me and she smells nice. Her smell's so addictive. Maybe she's addicted to my smell tooooooooooooooooooooooooo~

I need to cut my nails and take out my leopard prints because it's not allowed in cheerleading. There's Cca tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Long day though. Jiayou Heidi! Blazers here I come. Ahhhhhhhhh.

Oh and I can't stand the black strands growing out. What's my next dye colour? I want highlightz!

And remember: A guy can love a thousand girls, but the one meant for you will love only one girl, a thousand ways.

Meet me and Heihei.

I'm Heihei's benefactor.................. :D. Like seriously speaking. I think the gong kitten didn't know it was about to jump down the 3rd floor. -_- Heihei was born stray I think then my neighbour adopted it home. She keeps escaping my neighbour's gate because it's so small it can fit through the holezzzzz. Then it'll wander around the corridor and meow meow meow non-stop. That's me and Heihei outside my neighbour's house.

Aw, it's like very very adorable!!!

I almost died yesterday when I saw stand @ the ledge. Must be hesistating whether to jump anot la. Stupid one she. :>

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

A week of school's over! So fun [x100000000000000000000] Apart from studying Bio, Chem, Physics and amaths all over again -_-. I've been quite a good girl. I've done my homework! At least if I can find them on the online portal uh. I'm gonna revise my chemistry later because Idk what the heck the teacher talking that day. Everyone was talking about how fast she talks all.............................................

So the week has been fine for me :)

I've totally lost the mood to blog so I skipped blogging for one week! :> You must be wondering how was school for me hor??? Let me be a kind soul and fill you with the insightz of Week 1 of my tertiary life. c:

School pretty much rly awesm and there's nothing that's making me hate school just yet.

Apart from having to think about what to wear everyday to school, there's really nothing to worry about YET. Because tutorialz hasn't officially started, lab sessions hasn't started too, we only need to go for lectures. (: Quite slack hor??????????? The JC people are mugging like siao already.

I guess stress hasn't quite stepped in but it will sooner or later.

:)

I've been spending alot on clothes lately and now, I'm broke againzzz.

Congratulate me. I spent $60 in 3 days. $100 in a week. DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blogshops are such buttockzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Blogshops suck my $$$ like crazy one. ):

My laptop's arriving in 2 days. Muahahahahahahahahaha. Camwhore on photobooth!!!

***Wo hen kaixin***

Laced Bodycon Dress (ask for more picturez)
SELLING @ $22



SELLING @ $15 (FIXED)

Tpsu?

Cheerleading?

Karate?

Or all 3. Heezzzzzzzzzzzzz.

I've order my pink laptop! :> Happy Heidi naoz.

I.am.zombified.

):

My eyes can barely open. I'm supposed to feel refreshed and rejuvenated after a nice warm bath + with my fringe pinned up but I still feel sleepy. Must be all the campz' fault!!! Accumulated lack of sleeppppppppppppppppppppppp ):

Ahh I'm going Sentosa tomorrowz.

Official last day of slacking and chillin'.

On Monday, school startz. (!!!) Like, so fast uh. >:

When I see the schedule and modulez, I almost died. Human anatomy.......... WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I have no idea why I'm in a science course when I hate science -_-. Vet need to learn about human meh??? I hate studying the body of human beings. Boring ttm.

Please, don't make me regret not putting Apparel design as my first choice.

And channel 8 helped alot uhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ): So cool to design wedding gownz. My childhood dream ):

Bye darlings.

Chio hor???

But my right hand like shit. Because I can't polish properly with my left! ):

Anywayz, you luv it duncha?

Hi guyz I'm home today woohoo~ Had a fruitful sleep dreaming about my posb card :D.

Finally I went to the bank to apply today!!!

I feel kinda guilty. And *cross fingerz* I hope mummy and daddy won't find out. I MUST control my spendingzzzzzz. I can't go on spending like I've alot of money because I don't!!! I want to buy like damn alot of clothes (especially)! I still need to pay for my own transport. If you don't have to, count yourself lucky uh.

SO I JUST CAME ONLINE AND THIS SICK COCONUT TALKED TO ME!!!

Please read.



I'm sorry for the bad quality of colour but thats not the point!!!

DID YOU SEE? HE ASKED WHAT COLOUR BRA AND PANTIE I WEARING EH.

Wth. And he told me he's horny -______________-. This one then is the real chikopeh.

I wanted to play along with him you know? AIYA SHOULD HAVE. Then I go print it out black and white and report to police!!! His name is Gary, apparently. (K, I know he'll obviously give a bogus name.) Hmm, I wonder if he's really a lao ah peh like I mentioned :D. Stewpid Gary.

I totally want to get a picture of him and put it on stomp.sg!!!

cumcuminyou@hotmail.com!!!

Remember not to add! Or why not lets all add him and play along :) Hehehehehehe. Then we'll have alot alot alot alot of evidence! :> I don't understand why boyz get horny and prey on girlz online -.- And I thought my facebook is private??? How did he even get to see my picturez?!?! MAYBE HE'S ALREADY IN MY FRIENDS LIST (Since these few dayz I just add everyone that adds me because of FOC and Week 0 camp.)

Look at his email. Should've known -_-.

How I wish I scolded him better.

Anywayzzzzz, I've deleted him and reported abuse! :> Plz do not add him K because you do not want to end up being eaten by him, girls :) Be careful~ I bet he's ugly.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I'm going to do do-it-myself manicure and pedicure naoz.

Ryan Lim looks damn kewl to the maxim in his mohawk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Scarfoluv! (:

I'm still in the Scarfo mood although I've moved on the Falken in AS!!!

I met Val, Bev, ShiTing, Michelle and Dylan! <: Met new fwens in my class and the next class of Vet Tech. Woohoo~ We're the K1s, and the other class' the K2s. We sound like 5 year olds la but its cool, no meh? (: I love my class. Other than the fact we have just 22 students with only 4 boys. -_-.

My classmates come from all over the universe. Our oldest is 22. And Teja owns a diamond company. When the girls heard him, they sounded like they were all set to hook him but we just told him to leave a space for us each when he needs employeez. So cool hor??? Teja wears a 0.96 carat diamond ring to school. Believe it or not :D. I'm not kidding I swear. My eyes open big big when I saw the ring kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!! Teja's a nice guy, he has a fatherly face Idk?

:D.

The girls in my class rawk. (L) *hearts*

Did I tell you I had camp the past 2 days......................................... I feel so horribly tired naoz. I'm aching everywhere. I'm aching at my legs, my shoulders and my eyes ): I reached school @ 12.30am yesterday and I was awake all the way till 7.30am this morning when I reached home -_-. They made us play stewpid lame games the whole night k??? AIYA BUT QUITE FUN LA.

We did a nightwalk yesterday and I cried. ):

So scary you know you know you know??? They made us walk up the dark dark staircase ALONE. But... (: Because I begged the station master, he gave me some special arrangments. Which I'm not telling you because itz highly confidential! HEHE. We were supposed to walk up till we see something (we'll know when to stop supposingly) At the last level, they left a white top hanging on a string. When I saw that @$%#!$@%$ thing, I cry la. I was super freaked out.

And that concludes my scariest encounter in my whole entire life.

I didn't cry bucketz. I just cried because I was too scared.

So funny you know cause I was screaming all the way up hor? Then the people downstairs and upstairs could hear me. Then it sounded like ghostly eeeeeeery voices to 'em because of the echos up the stairs!!! Then I scared quite a number of people with my screamz. THEY THOUGHT GOT PEOPLE PLAYING MUSIC BUT THERE WAS NO ONE IN THE BUILDING I SO PRO HOR??? Hehe.

ANYWAY, I'M SO NOT GOING TO DO ANY KINDA NIGHTWALK EVER AGAIN.

I'm too scared ): Afterall... I'm scared of horror movies right?

I met the girlz from Cst too!!! They're so pretty & nice, especially the malay girlz. I forgot her name but you know during the game, we targeted this full-of-boys team then I tripped over their feet and fell super unglamly but heckcare, she asked if I was okay and all :) Then they hit my head the second time, she also like super guanxin wo :> And she asked if they bullied me!

So nice right not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There's like alot of chiobu in my course :) Even though I'll be overwhelmed with jealously, I can still take it la. I think? Hehe.

OH AND YOU KNOW ALOT OF PEOPLE ASKED IF I WAS MIXED!!!

I know I've been tweeting and facebook-ing and telling everybody but you need to know it makes me happiest of all. Mixed are known to be extremely chio and attractive ^^ and they're like 100000000x better than I am. And it's so hard to imagine me being a mixed. But isn't it like damn cool? It boosts my ego to the maximum!!! :> Not forgetting/ most importantly, they said I was mixed chinese + angmoh.

ANGMOH EH ANGMOH EH ANGMOH EH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Makes me think she hasn't seen the real version yet!)

But oh well, as long as it makes me kaixin :} I'll just deceive myself for awhile!!!

I think it'z cause' of my hair thats why because no one has ever said it before BUT! It's still a compliment. Right? I know even if I'm a mixed blood, I'll be the worst of all. But mixed blood = mixed blood. And there's no difference I don't care kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk?

Yay I'm not in the dragonboating team anymore. Woohoo~

Can't afford to get weird tan lines ): And I think I prefer staying white since I can never get tanned + increases the chances of skin cancer.

Oh ya you know my contact lenses broke. And I'm wearing specz now. I look soooooooooo ugly I feel like dying. I don't wanna go out looking like that.

Bye :>

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii guyz.

I just came home from camp. <: Okayz, actually like at 12+ am last night. Effing late!!! Quite amazing~ I can never stay out late. Aiya but Dad scolded me last night. ): I found this picture on facebook!!! Woohoo~ But I'm not tagged on facebook cause' all the picturez of me velly velly ugly. Like, my head so huge like a watermelon. ): I sad sia.

HEHE.

Anyway, FOC was fun ttm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hearts*

I kinda made quite alot of fwenz. But I didn't get some/most of their numberz. -_-. Well well, I hope I can go for the sentosa outing next saturday. It's like 49% chance I can go cause of my siao parents. I'm turning 17 in 6 monthz time = young adult (Actually I already am), but I still have to go home by 7 in the evening.

And I've never had dinner outside with fwenz at all. (Unless they're in good moods, but it's rarely)

I want to say I hate my life but... I THINK I LOVE MY LIFE > I HATE MY LIFE.

*Kaixin* :>

Omg you know I brought my camcam to camp. But guess what!!! Got no memory card inside. -.-

I wanted to camwhore with Lexy. ): A blog entry w/o picturez is damn boring. But too bad because I'm SOOOOOOOOOOO not posting the fugly shots. Kkkkkkkkkkkkkkk?

I miss camp so muchiez. I miss sleeping on the super hard without my pillow and my 8 soft toys. And I miss bathing in the "sauna". I miss screaming cause of the stewpid cockroach in the toilet. I miss having late night talks with girlfies and random people. I miss sleeping @ 2am and waking up at 6am. I miss eating with Scarfo. I miss playing games with Scarfo. I miss scarfo from my eyes to my toezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

The freshies + 1 GL's having an msn conference naoz. So fun sia.

(:

And they're planning to have breakfast on Thursday before Camp 0.

I luv TP's mass dance, So fun!!! Especially the spinning part. Woohoo~

My scarfians are such nice peepz. :) Just so many ahbeng. Hehe. The girls so fun to be with!

OMG YOU KNOW I'VE CAMP TOMORROW AGAIN BUT MY LEGS SO PAIN I CANNOT WALK EH. I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET VAL, BEV AND ST!!!

I'm beginning to luv my life in Temasek Poly :>

Wheepy!!! My highwaisted skirts are sold :)

Picnic with luvs, 6th April

































And I just luv 'em, don't cha? :>



See the chio ribbon from Diva??? Always wanted to get it but no money ): Thx Joel Bb!

Omg I haven't packed for camp. Byeeeeeeeeeee~

Hello honeybunchsugarpunch, thankz for waiting!

:>



Since the first day I saw you, I knew it was you.



J, I'll be your pillow when you sleep,



And I'll scratch your ears when they itch.



I'll give you a kiss even if you don't want me too.



And I'll bite you when you're naughty.



I'll protect you from big bullies.



Joel, you're my one and only. (:



And I'll always do.



Bye baby~ :)

Thanks to Theanimalblog.tumblr

Hi guyz.

Did you know Easter service at CHC was awesome??? :>

Like seriously!!! 2nd Easter @ City Harvest Church and it's the best drama yet. Almost like every Easter drama gets better *thumbs up* Am really proud to be part of the big City Harvest family. (: Well, I wasn't on-the-verge-of-crying like I was last year when I saw Jesus being nailed on the cross but I still did close an eye and my hands were still over my mouth.

Thank you Jesus for dying for me. Love you.

I went for Saturday and Sunday service (:

Thankz to all those who ignored my message or pretended you had something on. -_-.

It's just too bad you didn't watch it. I really don't get it. Why must people lie just because they don't want to attend an Easter service??? HUH HUH HUH. Stewpid. ): But thankz to those who replied me and gave me honest answers! <: It's really hard to invite people to church... So I see that ME attending church (considering my strict family background) is considered quite a miracle uh? :> Nonetheless, I still can't get over not going for fellowship everyweek -_-.

Thankz for those who came to join us for Easter service and I'm VERY sure you enjoyed yourselves like I did!!!

Thankz Joel for coming even though you know your parents didn't like it! *gigglez*

I woke up late for Sunday service again. How hilarious.

I told Ernest to come along with us just to accompany me and Nel but in the end, he was the one that ended of choping seats and waking me up. (: Cool hor????????????????????? Sorry Ernest! :>

Alright guyz, I didn't buy the knitted top in the end cause afterall, it's effing ugly I realise. :>

I haven't got my pay, I NEED MORE $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.



Highwaisted shorts w/ studs (worn twice)
Selling @ $22



Zebra printed dress from Max&more. (Worn once)
Selling @ $15



Floral Lace dress
Selling @ $17



Houndstooth printed romper (Never worn)
Selling @ $17



Glossy Black Jacket from Hula & Co. (Worn once)
Selling @ $20




Credits to ilovemyskirt.lj
In Navy
Selling @ $10

SOLD

With imme confirmation, I'll sell to you @ $2 cheaper.

PS Prices ALOT cheaper than market price so plz lend a helping hand :> You need to clear my wardrobe!

Updated (5/4/10)

All in perfect condition.

OMG I'M DAMN EXCITED FOR FOC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D.

Byez.

Joel bought me hot pink ribbon pins and earrings from Diva. :> Wooooooo~ Ily Bb!