Stress

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I'm sorry I haven't been blogging zomg sigh been reeeally busy lately ): 

Hope everyone's doing fine :>

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I'm still me

Sometimes you just want to put other people's happiness before yours, because you love them, because they deserve it. Sometimes you want to go out of your way for people just because you know it's important that they get a change to smile.

Hello everyone, how have you been? I realise I haven't blogged for close to 2 weeks. Wow. Time flies. School has started and it has been a bitch. Tests after tests after tests, can't even take a breather? A sad saturday for me, was supposed to go USS but my mom was just... too much. They left without me, because I told them to. I mean, why would I want to see her black face the entire day when I'm supposed to be enjoying myself in USS. You should totally find out wtf happened this morning, it's a molehill I know. I saw this coming. Because then again, which family outing turns out good? On a sidenote, I'm not really gonna bother about this morning because I'm pretty much used to being "the bad girl" in my family.

Life has been pretty :s for me. Only when I'm alone I guess. Who knows how I feel?

So many problems the past few days ugh sometimes I just wish I wouldn't wake up. I know this doesn't sound like me. I don't tell everyone my problems, not even my bestfriends. Which is why I don't tweet/ blog about it unless it is a rant. I probably only turn to 1 or 2 friends! I don't like telling people my problems. I have no idea why I'm sucha weirdo????????? I just don't like people to see me as the-girl-with-alot-of-problems. Honestly, its not that I don't show it in front of my friends, its just that when I'm with my friends, I forget about stuff that are not worth remembering. Coz who doesn't like to be happy?

Doesn't it scare you how fast people change? Because it scares me. And the biggest fear is having to lose someone. Whether you lose him because he chose to or because God took his life away. Wouldn't it be perfect if everyone you choose to keep stays and will never leave you? "I love you forever and I will never leave you." Sounds familiar? Then again, what are words? Because ultimately, most of the time, someone will grow out of it and everything falls apart. Why can't we all treasure? Sometimes even if we treasure, the person you love might day leave this earth and you, you're all alone picking up pieces trying to live life like you used to even though you know its not possible.

My uncle, not literally, passed away last weekend. He was a good man. Haven't seen him for about a year, never expected to see him on The Straits Times @ the obituary section. He'd been my neighbour since I was born till I was about 13. Then they shifted to the next block. I remember he used to take me in when no one was home and I remember calling him Uncle Vincent everytime I walked past his house. Rest in peace, Uncle Vincent. I will always remember you :)

So does anything last forever?

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I wouldn't say I'm alone because I know I have my friends and my baby.

Someone had a haircut!

When will you appreciate me for me?

Want to be as happy again?

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for you.

Sharing the pillow

2nd of May for me.

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