Pictures taken yesterday!
I must say that pudding cam + instagram makes me look decently goooooooood :P Been meeting this boy almost everyday to study (before his A levels ended) and now that his As are over......... it'll be quite mean if I get him to watch me study. So I guess we won't be meeting as much anymore? But I'll still bug him to meet him whenever he can!!!!!!!!!!!!!
School................. I don't even know how to begin. Did I mention my projects are piling up? ☹ Due next week and I've term tests coming up the following week. And I've damn alot to study for. Makes me feel like giving up on school. Dr chooi is a monster.
10 topics all on blood. 10 leh??!! And that's only 1 module. Imagine having 4 more modules to study for. It's bad luck to have him teach 1 other module ☹☹☹ On animal diseases and yup....... We need to know everything on dogs cats pigs horses cows at the back of our hand. Hmm say like 10 diseases on average EACH animal.
Why did I want to become a vet? JUST KILL ME NOW LIKE RIGHT NOW ;'( Share abit of how I chose vet over apparel design. It's stupid la......... so kuku I think it's the most ridiculous reason ever! Something like a....... a........ dddddrrrrrreeeeeaaaammm?
It was something I felt God wanted me to do though so I just did it without hesitating after that night. I don't know if it's a hasty decision made because all my life I've been dying to study fashion. It's my way of life. To draw to design to merchandise to just do what I loooooove to do. I'm actually pretty good in art and dealing with colours. Yeah do now thinking back, why didn't I choose the course I know I'll enjoy studying?
Instead I chose a course which has nothing to do with ART and everything to do with ...SCIENCE. My most hated subject ever since primary 3. (and a little inside: I failed O level biology) managed to get into Vet course with 9 points because I did not count my biology in :P
At that time, I thought animals would make me love science. And I also did it because I knew God only wants the best for me. Yes, I love animals. But now... I just don't know if I have the courage to do simple things like collecting blood from a dog.
Had a practical 2 weeks back and we were gonna test blood samples drawn out from our pets. (Yes we sometimes are required to bring our pets to school for practicals, but nothing serious) Usually for physical examination that sort~ the blood drawing exercise was by far the SCARIEST practical I've ever ever experienced and I was damn traumatized and heartpain ): even though jingjing wasn't there!! The thought of having to poke a needle into a vein with the animal trying to escape and struggling sooooo much. All the first attempts failed. So all the dogs here had to go through it AT LEAST twice. Ouch ):
Yup now you think I damn guniang right? I think so too.......... Really dunno when I'll get myself to do it. But then again, there's obviously something more to why I even had that dream that practically changed my life. If I was in design, I wouldn't have met such wonderful people who loves animals just as much as me!! Not forgetting, these people who make me feel really really stupid. All doctors-to-be except me... the stupid pathetic one T_T"
And I wouldn't be in cheerleading? Designers have a crazy hectic schedule so yup there wouldn't be time for a proper cca? Oh man, this bunch. Drifted ever since I quitted cheer. They were once the reason why I found poly life truly amazing. I heard you never find true friends in poly..... oh boy they were true, I just know it until... I guess when things started changing? I miss them. But wtf why should I when they don't? They don't even need you. It was stupid for me to think that they'll be the bunch who will always stand by you even after graduation. I'll only keep the ones that are worth keeping. You know who you are <3 And I feel so stupid I think of them occasionally. The things we did together, laughing and teasing each other. I could be myself around them. It's hard you know? For me to be myself around somebody? I feel so retarded I'm even blogging about them............... Wtvr it is, I'm happy for you all to have found a new bunch of people to be with. Why do I sound like a loner? Sssshhhhiiit.... Hahaha aw man these are one of the
many I wish could've lasted forever.
So then again, maybe that's the only thing that keeps me going. I really want God to show me the way really soon so I'll stop struggling. Having no goals isn't me at all and I hate this.
I'm not emo. I rarely am. Just... thinking.
So anyway I finally tried the food at Ikea and overall, it was the sex!!! Baby and I ate alot~~~ but I kept feeding him my food ^_^ So he ended up eating soooo much and he was so full :P The only disappointment was that the meatballs sucked!!! I hate beef but even Joel said there was nothing fantastic about it. The only thing that was sooooo good about that dish was the raspberry jam. Mmmmmm
Damn fat now. Haven't exercised since sunday and I binged today again... it's almost part of my diet alrd )': Need to stop before I really become obese leh waaaah this is damn scary. Can the term tests get over and done with so I can find time to exercise on weekdays? Meanwhile, I'm gonna forsake my exercise and ...STUDY!!!!!!!
Weekends are for exercise and I can do this. ):):):):):):): Y AM I NOT SKINNY???????????????????? Like supermodel skinny wehhh
Sorry for wasting your time! Just realized it's very wordy hehe. Enjoy the pictures ^_^
