Our debut

"I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you."

Maybe you're right, we've become strangers. You don't know me anymore, I don't know you anymore. It's sad how this whole year has been. How far we've come and what our ending is. It sucks that we're just different. And we took a whole year to realise it. It is time to put a closure to everything since we're both going nowhere. Everytime I think of you, my heart skips a beat. I always ask myself, how did we end up like this? I guess I'm at fault. I'm just fussy and unreasonable and I always expect too much from you.

I know you'd say I shouldn't take the blame because when something goes wrong, the problem doesn't lie with you or me, it lies with the both of us. We should just solve it together. I guess there isn't an US anymore. We're gonna lead our own lives from now onwards. I wish I was stronger to take all these. I wish we didn't take this long to realise we're not meant for each other. It's just too much to take. 1 year isn't a short period of time. 1 year of so much we've gone through together. I was happiest with you.

I am at loss. I have no idea what I should do. You know when you left me, I was so upset. Yes I know I didn't cry like it was the end of the world for me. But that doesn't mean I don't care. I care so much about you. You were everything to me. You know it yourself. Just because I didn't tweet much or blog much about it does not mean I don't care. But I don't want to. It does me no good right? You'll never want to experience it keeping everything to yourself. How much you don't want it to end but it has to.

I know I'm just running away from everything but it's the best way out. I'm not a loser I'm just dealing with this with my best interest at heart. I sound so selfish but humans are innately selfish. I don't want to cry like I can't live without you because you left me. If you're dump enough to leave me, I'll be smart enough to let you go. Can't believe I'm doing this.

You're so perfect. I'll never take that back. I'm just not perfect enough for you.

Goodbye J.

Never regret knowing you. I still love you. And you're so handsome.

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PAST.

Mummy turns 48.

It's the month of October. And there're so many birthdays coming soon! Mummy celebrated her 48th on Sunday the 3rd. We had a game of badminton in the afternoon~ Then we went to ecp to eat seafood zomg so yummy. The thought of the feast last sunday makes me salivate. We had chilli crab + mantou, fried youtiao, kangkong + horfun + prawns + sharksfin!!! I didn't eat sharksfin~ It'll be quite ironic if I continue eating sharksfin soup since I'm gonna take wildlife conservation later in year 2.

Nel was like, "You're more cruel to them leh. People kill you dw eat."

It's a huge sacrifice. I love sharksfin soup. I love how mouth-watering that dish is. It's like, the best soup ever. And because of how expensive it is, I don't eat it all the time. Only on special occasions. So, I'll never get sick of it. I couldn't wait for them to finish that bowl omg. I was so tempted to just gulp everything down. ); Save the sharks wheee~ Trying to do my part over here. Apparently if sharks go extinct the whole food chain will go bonkers. So I'm doing this for everyone k.

2 more days.

2 more days till I turn 17. I feel so young. I'm like a sixteen~ As sweet as ever. I don't wna grow up ): I don't see a 17 year old in the mirror. Not coz I'm childish, but I just don't feel 17. 1 more year and I can watch M18 movies = movies that are more exciting. 1 more year and I can club legally. 2 more years till I graduate from TP. 3 more years till I go overseas to study~ 4 more years before I become a legal adult. Okay actually it's quite exciting.

My birthday wish is for me to lose 4kg in a month.

Or at least become skinnier~~~

Anyway, October babies are hotties. Haha. I'm just saying :)

And my party on friday. Can't wait. To the 40 of you who have RSVP-ed, don't back out if not I'll poke needles into your backsides. To the rest, you guys can still come!!! I'm sorry if there won't be enough space. I seriously think I invited too many people but the more the merrier~ Luv y'all. For those who can't turn up its okay fishball still loves you all the same. Especially Jennifer, Royston and Jingyong. But I really do hope you'll miraculously turn up ): I hope you guys will enjoy that day Idw be a bad host ):

Out w/ Aloy tmrw for some stupid surprise hmmm excitingz!!!

I have a surprise for y'all on friday!!!

You're amazing just the way you are,

Hello. I'm back did y'all miss me. My blog's so dead. It's okay I shall just entertain me myself and I since there's nothing to do at home. Boring )': Last saturday went chomps for dinner with my Blazers. And I look damn white in the picture and my lips are especially red zomg I didn't put lipstick ah ew gross. Must be because of Mei and her spicy menu. We ordered everything spicy, stingray sotong kangkong all spicy~~~ Except the chicken wings. But it was sucha feast I luv spicy food. But I can't take too much hehe I can't eat mcspicy leh my stomach will die. I'll only eat mcspicy when I crave for it and... if my stomach know it'll be able to take it.

Swimming on sat with the girls and boys at Sengkang. It was damn fun~ :) We were like the only grown ups there like all small small boy boy girl girl one hehe and we tried stunting in the water but the lifeguard keep pipi us )': Stupid lifeguard. The slides were damn addictive hehe we kept sliding down so childish. *Young at heart* But I love my friends omg I know I've been saying that since forever but I feel so loved.

:)

We should swim more!!! Which means I should shed more hippo fats!!!

Diy training today and it sucked. K like I didn't accomplish what I wanted to accomplish but I did other stunts~ And I'm glad. Because we only had 1 pair of bases and 5 flyers so we couldn't do much. I still can't get a pop twist like why can't I do what I did the first time round???

Shall go cry now.

Bye.