Yay! The holidays are here :> How are you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ☺☺☺
I'm feeling kinda lazy today. But I did go for a jog this morning! Anyway if you guys didn't know, I've been running every alternate days since 3 to 4 weeks ago. There are no visible changes but I lost 1 kg :> Not sure if its just water loss or permanent weight loss! The scale just hit 45 2 days ago. And it's been wavering around 45 to 45.5, was a 46.5-47! ☺ My target weight was 45 because all the other skinny girls are 45 kilograms but I still so fat )': Like I have a high fat content in my body? I thnk my height also plays a huge role. Fyi, I'm 159.5cm ~ 160cm. (Quite short but I guess it's the average height of most asians?) Yeah so now my target weight is 43.5kg. It'll take me about 2 to 3 more months before I hit it. (If I continue running + dieting)
Just so you know if I'm 45kg but 165cm I'll be effin' skinny ♥♥♥ Does anyone know of anyway I can still grow taller? Haha heard that we'll continue to grow in height till we're 21. Why have I stopped growing since Secondary 1............................. -_- Does anyone know of any remedy, leave me fs comment!
It's damn difficult to lose weight omgzzzzz blame myself for having a HUGE appetite all the time. + an especially low metabolism rate........................ my life sucks. Yes #fact you gotta run at least 30 minutes everyday for 22 days to lose 1 kg. Bearing in mind, a proper healthy diet. Which is like CRAZY??????????? 22 days = no joke. But technically, exercising increases your metabolism rate so it may be less than 22 days. I don't think I've even reached my 22nd day -_- I think I'm only halfway through )':
It's really quite sad to control your temptations and limit what you eat for someone like me because I love food. And if I had a choice, I'd eat and eat and eat and eat. I have a tendency to binge alot. ): Like after meals I'll snack even when I'm pretty full and I'll stop eating till my tummy's damn bloated. Bloated as in I can't even walk because my body's using all of my energy to disgest the monster food.
Yeah so for all stick skinny girls out there who can never ever ever ever ever god-knows-how-many-evers-I-can-put-here, be glad! And just eat your life away. Because the best thing on earth is food. Well of course, other than shopping!
I know I'm being damn annoying here. -_- I know people are complaining about how I'll tweet about waking up to jog or that I'm fat or that I ate too much... I'm sorry I'm obsessed. It's just all girls wanna look good. Not looking good for anyone but myself. Like y'know, feel good about yourself? I honestly don't think I'm a very confident person? :s I envy alot of girls out there who're like so confident about themselves, it actually makes them beautiful.
Ok I admit, I'm not like DAMN fat but I'm not skinny enough I guess. And don't be a spoiler. It's my life. I'm not anorexic, not bulimic, I'm losing weight the healthy way so be glad for me! One confession to make, I haven't been eat reeeeally healthily (like strictly salad and fruits, no carbo no fatz) coz' there are still times I binge and just eat and eat and eat because I've lost to all the temptations but I always make it a point to shed those fats off! Then it's not about losing weight anymore, it's about being healthy. Right?
For the past month, I haven't skipped ANY meals, haven't starved myself, haven't taken any slimming pills or laxatives. I just told myself I shouldn't be lazy anymore if I want to eat. So it's kinda like I'm exercising not only to lose weight, but to eat more and at the same time, maintain my weight! Yep plus a whole lot of saying 'no' to junks! But of course, my goal's still to shed excess fats. Like you know, every girl has their own versions of thunder thighs. Someone told me I have thunder thighs. Yes, in my face. It's a guy! He should just watch me ☺ Can't wait to look back and be like #thosewerethedays.
I have control over my mind. And I swear I won't become anorexic, or bullimic. Another confession, I tried sticking my finger down my throat and not only did I not puke anything out, my throat was damn painful for the next couple of days. Not ever going to do that again man. I'm not ashamed so don't criticize me! It was a horrible experience. AND......... I know I can never be anorexic because you have to starve yourself!!!!!!!! I might as well kill myself omgz that's the last thing I wanna do! Don't worry, I'm not obsessed till that extent.
But I count calories though keke I think it's perfectly normal. Thats the only way you can monitor your diet. Am still gonna continue doing that even after I reach my goal weight. I just think it's only healthy you monitor what you eat. Because once you've gained it, it's much much much much harder to lose it. At least now I can be a nutritionist hahahahaha just kidding. So if you got a problem with me counting calories, you just gotta suck it up.
Talking about sucking it up, I've been sucking alot of things up lately and I feel like it has made me a more carefree person because I don't worry alot now. If you didn't know, I worry ALOT. Like about clothes, food, studies, the list can go on and on and on. I still don't make good decisions, but I just learn to live with it now! Like how I lost 30 marks for a paper because I carelessly left it out in my own notes, too bad suck it up. And how fugly my hair looks right now, too bad suck it up. AND yesterday I went shopping and I bought 2 meh tops. SADLY. You know how you want your clothes to be just perfect? But it's okay because.............. I'll never what looks good on me if I don't experiment! Haven't found a style that suits me yet. :s
I'm deprived of shopping $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ But as usual, I'm broke.
If you already didn't know, I've stopped working at Udders because I found a better job. Don't be mistaken, I love the job at Udders. Luvvvvvvvvvvv every single one of the udders crew. Just that I'm a lazy person and this job offers a higher pay without me having to do much.
Sorry for being soooooo annoying. This whole entire post is almost like a weight loss post. -_- Love it, hate it, whatever. Just wish me luck to my new job that's starting tomorrow and......... the new healthy me! •_•''
Afterall, the future gains from present pains.
Still damn sad I can't go tonight @anicorn still love you to the maximum.
PS Will be selling a new loot of items stay tuned puppies
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