Zombiefied

Update on how my dog's doing. Her rashes are gone and she's well now. Apparently, she hasn't had her annual checkup (+vaccines) in like............ damn long. I feel so uneasy :s Even though she seems to be in good health, I need to get her to the vet as soon as possible. I know it's very irresponsible of me )': I told my dad a couple of times to get her annual checkup done and he never ever ever calls the vet. I did it myself that day and felt lika noob on the phone with the nurse. I feel so ashamed? Plus the fact that I'm in veterinary. *Slaps forehead* Since I'm not talking to my dad, I told my mom about it and she's like... okok... What does okok mean? True she doesn't quite go outta the house = less likely to catch any virus/ parasites blah blah blah but it's always better to be safe than sorry. So I'm guessing I would have to fork out my own money.

Which I am so fed up with myself that I didn't think of bringing her to the vet when I got my pay the last few months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm a smartass huh. My next pay would be less than 60 bux I'm guessing because I didn't work much this month. I'm still hoping my mom would pay because I'm cash tight recently and this issue has been bugging me )': But if I don't insist, she'll just drag this. Also some personal reasons I don't wish to mention but I'm trying my best to fix it. #Ifonly I had $$$$$ I feel so bad for jingz love her to the maximum she will not fall sick if not I'll literaaaaally staaaaaabbbbb mmmmyseeelf :s

Seems like I'm damn troubled. Why can't I just chill?

x

Hiatus

I'm back from the crazy long hiatus.

Exams coming up in a week. In fact, I just did a paper this afternoon. Animal Care and Management. Can't believe I'm actually done with this module for the semester! Time flies. I can't to get over and done with ALL my exams. ALL. I'm so gonna make full use of the coming semestral break~ I totally deserve it hehe :s Soooooooo I have about 4 papers left. Yay! Ok la although 4 isn't quite a yay................... -_- Always look on the bright side!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to do this. Can't afford to retake any of the papers. It'll be a waste of my parent's $$$ and time.

So you haven't heard from me since I came back from Beijing. I can't even remember anything good that happened over there? :s A series of unfateful events. Yeah, shouldn't have gone. I even missed 2 major papers for the trip. Wouldn't say I was forced to. Let's just say I didn't want to disappoint my parents because it was a family trip. If you already don't know, I don't quite get along with everyone in the family SIGH HMMM My maid. My maid would be the closest person to me, if she's even called family. Okay my life isn't all that horrible la. It may sound like I'm depressed but really, I'm used to it. I don't even know how it's like to not be doubted? So why would I want to stay in this country alone and have my parents think cock about me. THEN WHEN THEY COME BACK................. EVERYTHING I DO IS COCK. So I thought if I just went along with them, they can watch over me (:o Make sure I'm good and I don't smoke, drink, talk to boys, commit crimes, or do anything illegal @_@ IKR EXACTLY WTF

No one understands. I don't even know if I'm making sense. Oh god.

I'm already 18 oh my goodness I'm boiling. AM I THAT STUPID???????? Do I want to ruin my life? I'm already halfway through getting a veterinary diploma. I have a damn bright future ahead of me. Do you think I'll do something stupid after all I've worked so hard for.

SO YOU SEE THE TRIP DIDN'T TURN OUT GOOD AT ALL. Won't go into full details but basically I fought with my dad and haven't talked to him since then. I miss him. But I don't mind this cold war because who likes to talk to someone whos always always always assuming always always always doubting. One less person to stop me from doing what I like to do. Ok over. So, my mom decided to play the angel and book ANOTHER TRIP during my end of semestral examinations. YES AGAIN. (But this time just in between not on the day of the paper)

This time, I am not going to screw up my papers. I initally wanted to just study over there..................... but then again, we're going to a villa. Villa leh, how to study?????????????? Go there already want to sleep zzzzzzzzzz so I told my mom I'm not going because I need to study. And obviously she didn't like it because I can do anything I want when they're all away. What can I do during exams right? Peanut brain. Why can't they just trust me that I wanna do well for my exams. Plus the fact I already lost 10 - 20% of the marks EACH because I didn't sit for 2 term tests. I CAN'T FAIL OMGZ AHHHHHHH I. MUST. DO. THIS.

I'm stressed out. My classmates have all been complaining about failing their term tests and I'm like, "I got a zero." What beats a zero? If I don't make this happen, I'll have to retake the entire module and I'll be more worn out next semester. Its times like this I wish someone would tell me everything's going to be okay. I wish my parents would. Because ultimately, I want to do well for them too. I want to show that I'm sensible enough. And don't you guys think I am?

Goodnight x All of you be happy
See you in a few days ciaoz